fuck it. amandasmith. fuckkk. wow. my mom's wish came true. im in shock. he's fucking doing the extreme. and i wonder how she looks like even lah. fuck fuck fuck. do i have to call her jie. fuck fuck fuck.

i just had a fucking memorable friday night. or rather saturday morning.

okay so things were normal. i met beks and we were err.. sharing secrets. or rather thoughts on... owell. good stuff. anyway beks, i was thinking about it. its damn tempting leh. anywaysss. yes. so we were at tcc, and there was this damn cute guy who kept going to the toilet. like 4 times in one hour? anyway. that was really out of point...

and then i met bev and min. we were supposed to do our work but as usual we got distracted lah. so it was breko's for min's chicken. and then tcc cos i told bev that i saw shariff there today. ack so pissed off with them. i wanted my choc lava thing. dammit. and anywayyy. as usual we were bitching about school and all. i love fridays. fridays are like.. bitchingabouttheentireweekday. and then shariff was talking to us and all. or rather he was bitching, big time. damn funny. as to my 'morals'. i love gay men. love, respect and everything else good. anyway yes.. bitching with shariff was damn funny. and another one who thought i was a lesbian. anywayy. it was by then around 2 and we were craving for soup from the foodfest at somerset (AGAIN) last day leh tomorrow. anyway. yes.. so we decided to walk from holland to town not cos we were broke but cos the weather was damn nice and we wanted to test our fat flabby thighs, knees and everything else lah.

so we walked allllllllll the way till botanic garden, and then bev suddenly went... "OH SHITE MY RETAINERS!!! I LEFT IT AT BREKO'S!!" and it was freaking 600bucks lah. so we called them and they said they will check the trash for us. but to show our sincerity, we cabbed back to hollandvee ($4.50 cab fare leh. thats how far we walked!!) and....... did the worst thing ever. okayyy fine so maybe not the worst. but.......... well most horrid and sick.

the people at breko's said that they couldnt find it. (i mean seriously..... like as if they would really search the trash for us.) so....... we removed our bangles, watches, bracelets, rings..... wore gloves...... went to the back of breko's and searched through THREE fucking trash bags before the people in breko's told us that they found it IN the bin thats IN breko's. so anway...... touching and squeezing every single tissue paper you see in the trash bag and putting away all the cigbutts, bottles, food and all IS FUCKING SICK. after the horrid ordeal, we went like.. "wahlao. what a sight. one teacher to be, digging through the trash. one arty farty with the portfolio and funky hair, digging through the trash. one with the pink nails, handbag and hat, digging through the trash." AND AT THE BACK ALLEY LAH! you know how sick the sight was...... the rubbish and all.... wahlao............. but its okay cos at least we got bev's retainers back in the end. it was a...... super super memorable friday night. i mean.... trash leh!

now im like i dont know how sleepy. im supposed to meet the rest to go for the funfair in st marg's at 1. but im so sleepy!! and ive got my painting to do on the canvas. the weekend is gonna fly by me.. AS USUAL. dammit. i hate school. makes me lifeless.

i think im the worst student alive. (yah yah.. always have been. *rolls eyes*)
my assignement is due in like 8 hours time. and im still happily online chatting, checking out sites, replying emails and all.

so im prolly not gonna sleep tonight, AGAIN. and then fall asleep during art history lecture AGAIN tomorrow. i never learn my lesson huh. then weekend so packed, where got time to finsh my canvas painting? then like that monday night dont sleep again lah!

can you rock my world without breaking my heart?

i went to the gym just to go on the treadmill for 30 minutes.... ackk! they didnt want to attend bodycombat. aiyah never mind also. cos today's bodycombat isnt held by the instructor that i like. the one that does the damn nice sounds. haha.

i really need to lose weight leh. how?? and i love food so much. almost every weekend meet bev and min sure go around singapore eating all the good food. like that how to lose weight i ask you?

i bought two bottles of sallyhansen nailpolish for only five bucks. so cheap how not to buy i ask you??!! hor christina?? haha.

i need to drink barley ehs.
i dreamt last night that my mom finally boiled homemade barley for me and i was damn happy lah. but it was just a dream.

saturday how everyone??? aiyoh. okok. i feeling super aunty now. must be hazel lah. just now imitate me too much already.

so im going to the gym soon.
and reach home really late.

and then not sleep again tonight cos ive not completed tomorrow's assignment. whats new right. daphne lim, i really very angry with you.. you know or not? whatever happened to you telling yourself last night saying.. okay, today i will wake up at 9, latest 10.. finish all my assignment then go to the gym. then in the end u woke up around 11plus. read stupid magazines, trashy novels, newspapers, everything. but doing your work. very clever hor? want to dont sleep everynight is it? tomorrow long day leh. got art history tutorial again leh. you want to sleep for another 2 hours like you did yesterday is it?!!

wannabe, spice girls. class95!!!!

*nudges beks and eve. teeheeteehee.

i just fought with tasha. literally. kicks, scratches and all. cat fight.

ive got horrid hair now. really really ugly hair color. freakkk.

black roots all out but since im not doing the next hair show, i wont get to color my hair for free. and i dont pay for my hair coloring. so dammit. ACKKK!

i need to go apple shopping.

i need to start doing my work. AND NOT PROCRASTINATE. i can already predict the days ahead..
friday :: procrastinate the entire afternoon and night. meet beks for coffee..
saturday :: sonicfest with bev and min. smps funfair. gym. dinner.. too tired at night to do my work as usual.
sunday :: church. and prolly flea market. and then i will come home and sleep all the way till 10plus. take up have dinner and then sleep again.
monday :: come home from school.. sleep. all the way till dinner time. wake up have my dinner.. finish painting homework on canvas. and not sleep the entire night, AGAIN. 

see, it becomes a cycle.

okay. that was a fucking childish entry.
i wasnt thinking straight. okay. or maybe im just being childish about it.

sorry mom.

ignore me.

ed and charlyn, thanks for listening to me whine.

im freaking pissed with my mom. she refuses to pay my handphone bill. and now i cant even call out. she claims that since im using so much, i should pay for it myself. fucking hell. make me get into this super pissed mood and now i wont have the mood to do my fucking homework.

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
FUCKKK.

fucking hell.

forget it, i will do the typrical rebel daughter thing. dont pay my bills? fine.. so be it. i will get another fucking line myself. NOT TELL YOU THE FUCKING NUMBER. so that you cannot contact me. and dont make me start on my coming home in the fucking morning shite just to piss you off.

the blue abercrombie&fitch sleeveless top.
the purple wall.

the everything.

ive got a project due on wednesday. and ive not started on it yet.
im so so so dead. and i came home today around 2. instead of doing my work, i went to take a four hour nap.

so i doubt gym is on for me tomorrow cos i probably wont be sleeping at night cos i will be busy doing my project. BAH.

im already in my week 4 of school.
there is a essay due in week 7. and ive yet to even decide on what i want to write about.
after week 7, there is a one week break. its prolly the only thing i look forward to. (besides thursdays and the weekend.)

fuck off lah daphne. will you please buck up? im going to slap your facee. stop procrastinating. stop irritating yourself. stop thinking so much. stop feeling. at the rate you are going, how to do well in foundation year? you are so lazy, so whiny, so messy. remember your promise to jie and dan kor? remember how u had such a hard time convincing your family that you wanna go to lasalle and no, you wont end up like your brother? you know how much they have to actually trust you to allow you to attend that school? spend so much money on all the materials and you just wanna procrastinate your one year away is it? you got what you wanted and are you making full use of it? you are so fucking lazy you just leave all your assignments on the table and sleep all day long. after all the advice given to you from kelvyn, jim and bev.. you want to let them down is it? you want to continue this way for how long more i ask you? getting passes enough for your foundation year is it? eighteen soon already leh. still want to play for how long i ask you? you think your forever sixteen. no worries, nothing is it? snap back to reality lah. then now all talk, no work. so fucking lazy. once you get home you just dont wanna do anything. im so angry with you, you know? ey girl, wake up. seventeen years old already leh. school started a month ago you know? there isnt as much time as you think there is. hello wake up can anot??

my middle finger on my left hand feels very empty without my ring. prolly cos ive been wearing it everyday since err 1st jan this year. finally sent it for polishing.

i wanna go to KL now. not tomorrow. now. can?

oh yay now i have two beautiful fans. how great!! =) i bought my original black one yesterday again after losing it about a month back. and today misslow gave me one mini pink one. yayy.

lunch after service at OA was great. especially after the phone call!! *nudge eve, hazel and miss low.* town-ing after that with bev and min. goodness. we each ate a muddymudpie ourselves. how sinful. big time..

went to my aunt's place after that. mel was in a super good mood today lah. he made like alot of funny jokes and all. and he likes to tell his mom this, "who says im not serious about my work.. u ask daphne.. hor girl?" forever! and mel told me, "hows school? kel ask me to tell you dont slack and skip lessons all that ah you. somemore you so naughty. kel say foundation very important." ahhh. whatever! they all say the same things.

anyway went to visit my cousin at the hospital. he's much much better. =) and he was like telling me not to go get a tattoo and all. and he didnt believe me when i said that im tattoo-less.

super sleepy. ack. feel like skipping class tomorrow.

finally met up with denise after like donkey months. haha. was quite fun catching up and all. minus the horrid voice during dinner.

i heard the funniest "rumour" about me today. *rolls eyes*
i took a londoncab for the first time ever. its damn spacious. i like i like.
connie and carla was damn good. what a day to watch. 25th.
i learnt alot about relationships today.
connie and carla made me cry.
i bought yet another tube that i probably wont wear,again.
i finally collected my rouge card. :) but its a lil too late cos im so not into the clubbing scene now.

ive got church in five hours time.

its been seven months since christmas. dammit.

pool playing and food fest-ing called off. =(

it has been about a month since i lost my fan. and ive yet to find the perfect sub fan yet. dammit. life sucks without a niangniangqiang fan. *rolls eyes*

i love my sister even though she was a bitch the last time i had dinner with her.

i desperately need a haircut + color. black roots and hair that sticks out at funny places makes me wanna hide in a cap all the time.

tony leung is in singapore for the starhub thing in ngeeanncity. i remember how everyone used to tell me that danny looked like a mix of leslie cheung and tony leung. haha. so should i go check him out? lol

wearing the vondutch last night reminded me of the time ed asked me to take a picture with my cap and act all hiphop. so he whips out his 7610, lies to me that he's taking a picture.. asks me to do all the different hiphop silly poses and different facial expressions. and then i realised that he was actually taking a video after one minute. and up till now, he's still trying to blackmail me with it. hrrm. that night was damn fun with the newtoy of theirs. video taking such as, "little girl, check id check id..... underage smoking!!!" turns to kel.. "you young punk. must be your doing.. teach this girl to smoke and all huh!!" kel does the no-no hand thing with a damn cute face. "no no no.. im not the young punk who taught her to do such naughty stuff." points to mel. "his fault dooooode!" okay.. u wont understand the whole scene unless u go to the ktv place and all. like a bloody illegal den. all smoking and all. ahh. okok. just let me go on and on and on.......

wah-eh-wer!

finally met up with bran, cj etc etc after like months! hahha. salty taste? eeeeeyer!

i should stop procrastinating and go to the gym more often to lose weight.

having coke on your jeans and shoes is damn sick. cold, sticky and wet. eww. 

the new fag packaging sucks. especially the baby one. and no, you arent supposed to look at it and go... "eyy the baby damn cute lah!."

ive got superrr nice pictures now in my thumb drive!!!! =)) jim deserves all credit!

anyone wanna print namecards or yada.. go to backcomp at brasbrasah.

bev just sms-ed me. see. i knew it. lesbian! hahaha. hot stuff hot stuff.

thank God for jim!!! although ive only met him ONCE. he saw my nick on msn just now [[daphne needs a photoshop guru!! and offered to actually help me with my mediaart project!! my my, he's God sent! and his office is like damn near my school.. so from now on my thumb drive is gonna be in my bag all the time should i need to do my work at his office!

while i was flipping through my notebook, i read about what i wrote on that night.
and then this song came on class95.

"all i wanna do is make love to you.."
recall recall. the funny things you did that night.
the  hiphop dance. the shake your ass song. the everything. everything.

ack. im horrid. and hello, who was my senior and you were supposed to help me should i need help. whatever happened to those crap lines you said?

 

charlyn is my idol. shes the shopping guru. at the mere age of 25+. 200 over pairs of shoes. good job. fun job.. everything. the works. now now, if only she can be my cousin in law.

i ran away from home. and while walking to the taxi stand, i realised that i left my phone at home. so i walked all the way back home to take my phone. so i called my cousin and then i dont know why we went up to my place again. he said that we will walk to chinajump later to look for the rest. he then showed me a flyer that announced that one of his good buddies is doing podium dancing at chinajump. and its a guy. so my cousin and i went for supper with my sister. and we actually smoked together. and after that my cousin and i walked to chinajump as he said they will be there till 10am. i dont know how we ended up at my cousin's place and he had this really huge live white lion in his living room and it could actually growl. i stayed over and woke up with chicken pox only to find out that no one was at home and i had no money to see a doctor.
 
its all a dream. a very weird one indeed.
 
im feeling feverish. ack!

so i only slept for 1 hour this morning before going to school.
 
and amazingly i wasnt a grouch this morning.
 
i love bodycombat classes. especially when its held by whats-her-name.
i like her sound effects!!! hahah. *rolls eyes*
today jen, chris and i were standing near this fountain during combat class.
this guy (fair, black hair, black sleeveless top) is horrid!!! standing near him makes us move far far away from him........
because........ whenever he moves, *punch, kick.. etc. his sweat will just FLY around. on us, on the floor and all. its so sick i tell you. its like raindrops. EEEEECCCKSSS!

my hair is damn long now. feels weird.
 
not gonna sleep tonight.
got three paintings due at 9am. freak.
 
i should stop procrastinating!

1 thing scary about www.wholivesnearyou.com is that i saw my neighbour's profile (whos married, with 1 daughther who's kyra's age.. 1 beautiful wife..).. and the funny thing is? he puts himself as SINGLE. LOOKING FOR ACTIVITY PARTNERS.
 
 

random thoughts>>
 
:: living without a computer for 20 days isnt as bad as i thought it would be.
:: im really really super broke. school supplies cost a hell lot.
:: my hair color faded again. so ive got really funny hair colors now.
:: on the 14th july, my cousin, korkorhowe got into a car accident.
:: he's in icu now. but apparently condition is stable. but stable condition and icu dont go together?
:: i really really cannot paint to save my life.
:: ive been very very lazy. i procrastinate like crazy and do my work only the day before its due.
:: i love bodycombat classes though i think i look like a fool doing it.
:: i get lost in suntec all the time.
:: i am at my most dressed down when i go to school.
:: i wear jeans, slippers and big shirts.
:: i think im starting to look quite butch like. (jokes)
:: daphne, if you dont remember someone's name. just ask them straight. dont act as though you remember them.
 
i dont like being busy. =(
 

met junia and colin bestfriend at jurong point just now to eat. hahah. yeaaa. now im more confident about school. thanks junia!!

lotsa bitching.. hahaha.

okay. gonna go for supper now!
cough damn bad. ACK!